i did not anticipate using artreview to process my own process. but that's what's happening, so I am going with it. i am having this really life-shifting shit come up through recording my process, through photography, voice recording and video. as i have recorded and played back these documentations, i began wondering why this is so fascinating, to hear my own voice, to see my own image talking back to me through time-space about something i have already experienced in real time? then tonight it dawned on me; by looking or listening back over these recordings, i am engaging in a dialogue in which i hear or see myself, then respond by processing what i am hearing or seeing. it's sort of the ultimate mind fuck for a self-absorbed artist like myself. i live so completely in my head. but what i am doing now is intending to share these recordings with my audience, as a part of the exhibition space. i realized just tonight that the visual is not enough for me. i don't care if i am violating the laws and protocols of obtuse conceptual display any longer. i want to give more. i want to have more than the prints and encaustic. i want to have an engagement opportunity. i want to demystify the process, and break down the walls of fear that often divide artist and audience. we are the same. i am an audience of my own work. my audience is reflected in the work by nature of the content and the very act of display. i just think this is one of the most enjoyable experiences i have had making any work. it's fascinating to reflect daily on what has been accomplished or lost, forgotten or constructed. i think it is important for understanding the art making process, to provide that opportunity to reflect, for myself and for others who might care to know.